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Photo Credit- Pexels My day is not going well. Hell, It's not been a good week. And I know many of us are going through it. But I guess today is just one of those days. This moment is just one of those moments. The moment where everything just goes to crap. You've been trying to keep it together in your tribulations. Trying to keep it pushing. Keeping optimistic and hope for better days. And then, the last nail on the head comes. Suddenly you can't keep it together. All of it comes flowing freely. The tears won't stop flowing. Your body feels weak. It can't move anymore. All your frustrations demands to be felt. And they are not going anywhere. You've been trying anything and everything. But door after door keeps getting shut in your face. Rejection after rejection. Disappointment after disappointment. All your efforts to keep pushing this boulder uphill only for it to roll over you downhill. Leaving you battered and bruised. Your actions to make things better o...

I am afraid

Photo Credit- Formica AI I am afraid. I am afraid that I am not all that.  I am afraid that people will realize that I am not all that.  I am afraid that I am not as important as I think I am.  I am afraid that I am a fraud.  I am afraid that one day people will wake up and realize that I am a fraud.  I am afraid that I am not who I think I am.  That I do not deserve the good things I have.  And I am afraid that one day they will be taken away from me.  I am afraid to be bad at something I am normally good at.  I am afraid that I have been pretending all this time.  I am afraid of being perceived as weak.  Because weak means not good enough.  I am afraid that I am not good enough.  And that I will never be.