So this is what regret feels like

Photo Credit- Mark Manson

I wish I was brave. 

Brave enough to love you loudly. 

I wish I was courageous. 

Courageous enough to go after what I wanted. 

You. 

I wish I didn't care what they thought. 

Cause while I cared what they thought. 

They were busy doing what I wanted to do. 

I wish I let them judge me. 

Cause now I realize, 

I don't care much for their opinion anyway. 

And I lost a gem collecting rocks. 

I lost so many moments, so many opportunities. 

Hiding myself from you. 

While all you wanted from me was to reveal myself. 

We were a perfect fit, I see that now.

 As I look back, all I feel is regret. 

So this is what regret feels like. 

The words unsaid leave me in a chokehold. 

All I feel is anger and pain. 

Anger towards them but mostly me. 

And pain for the lost opportunities. 

You saw me, I saw you. 

But I was afraid. 

 I'm afraid it's too late for us. 

The damage has already been done.

 I promise, 

That I won't be afraid next time. 

I won't care what they say. 

When I ponder whether to sit or dance,

 I promise you, I will dance.