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So she let it

She didn’t recognize the girl staring back at her in the mirror. It was like she was looking at a stranger. A stranger in her own body. She was different. She just woke up one day and felt different. She didn’t like who she had become. It didn’t sit right with her. She felt consumed by her existence. Voices, echos, whispers all talked to her from every corner. More like shouted. Telling her all sorts of things. Contradicting things. Lies. Everyday she felt like a new person doing the same old things. The mirror mirrored all of her actions. But it also reflected them. She was exhausted. She felt like running until her problems didn’t chase her anymore. She yelled them away but they just yelled back louder. The faster she ran the faster they caught up with her. There was no escape. No where to hide. No one in her corner. It was her against this monster. And it was eating her up. So she let it.

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