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Invisible Doors

    Photo Credit -Amino Apps

You know those people that open doors and don't close them? Especially the doors that keep the cold outside and the warmth in. The doors that when open everyone can see what is going on inside and it gets annoying. When you are comfortable in your room, deep in your warm blankets then a sibling just opens your door, inspects the room, touches random things and then leaves it wide open for no particular reason and when you tell them to close the door they are too far gone so now you have to get up out of your comfortable bed to go close the door that was comfortably closed. Well, that recently happened to me. But mine wasn't a literal door. No, I wish it was though. It was a door I didn't even know existed. The kind of door your subconscious closes shut because what is behind it is not that pretty. Funny thing is whatever is behind this door has been affecting my life seriously and I was oblivious to it. But I don't know if this person realized the hell he let loose into my life when he opened this door. Worst part is, he doesn't even know. He's just going about his day in bliss while I'm paralyzed by my own brain. And no, It wasn't anything romantic if anything he was more of a father figure. It's not that I didn't know this door existed, but in my mind it was hazy. I didn't want to deal with it. I knew I should, but I didn't want to. I still don't want to. But if I don't, the worse it gets. The questions that opened this door were questions I didn't have answers to. But in reality I do have answers to them. I just don't want the answers because it will mean confronting some demons that I'm not ready to face. I don't think I'm strong enough. But maybe whatever door that has been opened is a good thing. I am grateful to him for helping me see it but I am resentful of what he made me see. I guess it's true what the say, the truth hurts. Anyway, the damage has been done. It is what it is. I just have one question for you. What doors are you keeping locked because you know if you opened them, you would set all hell loose? And why is that a bad thing? 

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