Photo Credit- Mark Manson I wish I was brave. Brave enough to love you loudly. I wish I was courageous. Courageous enough to go after what I wanted. You. I wish I didn't care what they thought. Cause while I cared what they thought. They were busy doing what I wanted to do. I wish I let them judge me. Cause now I realize, I don't care much for their opinion anyway. And I lost a gem collecting rocks. I lost so many moments, so many opportunities. Hiding myself from you. While all you wanted from me was to reveal myself. We were a perfect fit, I see that now. As I look back, all I feel is regret. So this is what regret feels like. The words unsaid leave me in a chokehold. All I feel is anger and pain. Anger towards them but mostly me. And pain for the lost opportunities. You saw me, I saw you. But I was afraid. I'm afraid it's too late for us. The damage has already been done. I promise, That I won't be afraid next time. I won't care
Shifts, can be scary right? I get into ruts, often My peers move up the corporate ladder Maladaptive daydreaming Bursts of dopamine Try to get into old hobbies Cannot sustain it Mindless scrolling Wishing that I could live other people's highlights Loud music blasts in my ears eliciting various emotions in me Escapism But it all comes crashing down And I'm back in my room In the darkness With the harsh brightness Of my phone screen glaring at me Just a fantasy It's time for a shift It's been time, Yet I cannot I'm still stuck Stuck where you left me